今天讓我落淚的一件事

今天早上group meeting時

一個加拿大人group member叫做Anita

忽然說她昨天得到一個很糟的消息   

她想跟我們說因為她沒辦法假裝正常

她的cousin和cousin 媽媽 & cousin 奶奶三個人住在一起

在Thanksgiving家族聚會後回家的那天凌晨

家裏被闖空門

一個帶著刀子的男人想進去強暴她們

先進到cousin奶奶的房間  奶奶尖叫後被刺死

cousin & cousin媽媽被驚醒  後來跟凶手博鬥時媽媽也被殺了  

剩下唯一的女兒全身是血逃出去求救

兇手已經被抓到

是隔壁鄰居

有性犯罪前科  現在是類似假釋被限制在家坐牢   

Anita一邊講一邊哭

我好難過  

雖然後來還是繼續meeting  

可是我很後悔沒給她個擁抱之類

因為顧慮到我們沒有很親近  只是group member的關係

想起以前我奶奶走了時的痛苦

想起小柏跟姵希你們兩個曾陪我在有一天午休時到教室外面哭

有人因為感同身受我的傷心而陪我一起掉淚

給了那時的我很大的安慰

我希望也可以多少給Anita一點安慰

所以我寫了封信給她:

Hi Anita,

first of all, just want to let you know that if you wanna come to uni
to study together during this weekend,  you are more than welcome to
give me a call.

I deeply feel your grief for the loss of loved ones. My grandma had a
stroke 8 months before she passed away. And my family didn't tell me
that she was in hospital because I had an important exam. They let me
know after the exam and I felt so hurt for not being with her. Seeing
her lying in bed with so many tubes in her body and the fact that she
couldn't recognize me, it was really heartbreaking.  Then she left us
when I was in my last year of my senior high.  We got a call from the
hospital 4 A.M in the morning.  It was the darkest day in my life and
I can never forget.  I had the entrance exam for uni soon so I still
had to study.  I still remember, for a period of time, I went to the
toilet during class break when I was at school because I couldn't help
crying whenever thought of my grandma. every page I read in the
textbooks were tears somewhere...I still cry now when mentioning this
to others.  Time doesn't heal the pain.  What we can do is just move
on... It's beyond my words to express my condolence this morning. but
I keep thinking of you.  I know it's a tough time for you now so if
being accompanied in any way could make you feel a bit consoled, I'd
love to do that for you.

有時候不管生活裡再多不順心

一遇到這種哀痛

不順心都變得好渺小

只要想到至少我的親人  好朋友  都好好的

我自己也是過著"不致缺乏"的生活

就覺得要感恩

所以你們都要好好的喔

大家都離家在外

一定要小心照顧自己

沒事多打電話回家(我一忙就很少打電話!明天要打~~~)

~我真誠地從遠方傳過去我的關心給妳們每個人~

take care!